I'd like to take some courses at the university level. I have the resources to do so. It's part of my benefits package.
I just have absolutely NO clue what I want to take...I don't know what I want to be when I grow up...
And frankly, it terrifies me - the looming failure. (how's that for insecurity...lol)
I talked to MJ about it not long ago and his advice was to wait. There are things I have to do, to get my life in order and my ducks in a row before I tackle such a monumental undertaking.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Books
I love books. I can lose myself for hours in a good book...for days in a series if it's compelling enough.
I'm currently reading Stephen King's Dark Tower series. Although I started reading it several months ago, I put them aside for a couple months while life got in the way and have just picked up book 5.
My job is such that I can occasionally read between calls but more often than not, it's busy enough that giving a good read its due focus can't be done.
And sometimes I answer the phone with a word or two of a phrase I've just read instead of my usual greeting...lol
I'm trying to foster the love I have for reading in my mini-me, but I'm afraid it's a losing battle...reading, to him is a chore. (not a chore to read to him, but he views it as a chore!)
I'm currently reading Stephen King's Dark Tower series. Although I started reading it several months ago, I put them aside for a couple months while life got in the way and have just picked up book 5.
My job is such that I can occasionally read between calls but more often than not, it's busy enough that giving a good read its due focus can't be done.
And sometimes I answer the phone with a word or two of a phrase I've just read instead of my usual greeting...lol
I'm trying to foster the love I have for reading in my mini-me, but I'm afraid it's a losing battle...reading, to him is a chore. (not a chore to read to him, but he views it as a chore!)
Friday, March 17, 2006
Sunshine & roses
A little bit about my MJ.
He's my best friend and my confidant. He has been my mentor for some time now and I appreciate him more & more every day.
He makes me laugh and cry and sometimes he even pisses me off, but in everything there is growth.
My mini-me thinks he walks on water...lol
So do I, some days.
He's my best friend and my confidant. He has been my mentor for some time now and I appreciate him more & more every day.
He makes me laugh and cry and sometimes he even pisses me off, but in everything there is growth.
My mini-me thinks he walks on water...lol
So do I, some days.
A Series of More Fortunate Events
So things have calmed down since the alarm system was installed and it's normal again, or as normal as it gets around here...
My mini-me has stopped counting his stuff and touching it all obsessively because of the break-in.
Paul called last night...we talked for a little while, but he was tired so we said our good nights and he said he'd call tonight. He puts such a smile on my face. *giggle* I don't think I'll see him this weekend unless I go up there on Sunday when his daughters have gone back to their mom's. It's not a bad drive back to town in the morning, traffic is fairly light that early...*groan*...at 6:30 am. The girls need their space alone with their dad right now and I respect and appreciate that. His ex expressed concern about his oldest daughter's reaction to my appearance in his life so we've agreed to limit my exposure to them for now. His youngest is ok with me though, they're both great kids & we'll just work it out as we go along. My mini-me thinks the world of Paul and can't wait to go fishing...lol
We had appointment #2 with the psychiatrist this morning - he really is a sweet guy and good with m-m, despite my crankiness and bad attitude regarding a series of postponed appointments by the doc. As a result of today's appointment, we're cutting back on the Risperdal to eventually eliminate it completely in about 3 months time. It has to be weaned off gradually, just as it was introduced to his system slowly and we go back in a month for follow-up. He'll remain on the same dosage of Dexedrine for now, which is calculated by weight.
If only you could see how I compose a post - lol - it just struck me as so ridiculously chaotic but hilariously funny all at once...ok ok - it is in MY world alright? :P...thoughts jump into my mind - precisely the analogy of constantly flipping the tv channels. Our - those of us afflicted with ADD/HD - brains are in constant motion. So if I don't get the thoughts down immediately, often they're gone and gone for good...lol...so I start out with several short thoughts but by the time you read this it's expanded, explained and cleaned up...and I've hopefully managed to catch any spelling and/or major grammatical errors. I'm a little neurotic about it - even though I do purposely use "slang" on occasion...it's just a *thing* I have about some of the things I try to read online but can't because it's all in short form & nobody uses all the same format...yanno?
JUST LEARN TO TYPE PEOPLE :P
I got roses today. 2 dozen long stem red roses. *sigh* He's so good to me :) ilu my MJ
I think I'm going to go get a tan...my colour is fading.
My mini-me has stopped counting his stuff and touching it all obsessively because of the break-in.
Paul called last night...we talked for a little while, but he was tired so we said our good nights and he said he'd call tonight. He puts such a smile on my face. *giggle* I don't think I'll see him this weekend unless I go up there on Sunday when his daughters have gone back to their mom's. It's not a bad drive back to town in the morning, traffic is fairly light that early...*groan*...at 6:30 am. The girls need their space alone with their dad right now and I respect and appreciate that. His ex expressed concern about his oldest daughter's reaction to my appearance in his life so we've agreed to limit my exposure to them for now. His youngest is ok with me though, they're both great kids & we'll just work it out as we go along. My mini-me thinks the world of Paul and can't wait to go fishing...lol
We had appointment #2 with the psychiatrist this morning - he really is a sweet guy and good with m-m, despite my crankiness and bad attitude regarding a series of postponed appointments by the doc. As a result of today's appointment, we're cutting back on the Risperdal to eventually eliminate it completely in about 3 months time. It has to be weaned off gradually, just as it was introduced to his system slowly and we go back in a month for follow-up. He'll remain on the same dosage of Dexedrine for now, which is calculated by weight.
If only you could see how I compose a post - lol - it just struck me as so ridiculously chaotic but hilariously funny all at once...ok ok - it is in MY world alright? :P...thoughts jump into my mind - precisely the analogy of constantly flipping the tv channels. Our - those of us afflicted with ADD/HD - brains are in constant motion. So if I don't get the thoughts down immediately, often they're gone and gone for good...lol...so I start out with several short thoughts but by the time you read this it's expanded, explained and cleaned up...and I've hopefully managed to catch any spelling and/or major grammatical errors. I'm a little neurotic about it - even though I do purposely use "slang" on occasion...it's just a *thing* I have about some of the things I try to read online but can't because it's all in short form & nobody uses all the same format...yanno?
JUST LEARN TO TYPE PEOPLE :P
I got roses today. 2 dozen long stem red roses. *sigh* He's so good to me :) ilu my MJ
I think I'm going to go get a tan...my colour is fading.
Friday, March 10, 2006
Busted
My house got broken into recently.
I have few doubts as to who did it and what he was after, but he got nothing and caused me more aggravation than anything and managed to cost me a few bucks too to replace the door.
Worst of all, it's caused problems for my mini-me. He's been displaying behaviours not typical of him despite his ADHD & ODD, like counting his things and touching them obsessively & repeatedly.
I'd like to have to little bastard that broke in here by the balls JUST for that alone.
I had a security system installed and it's monitored 24/7.
I have few doubts as to who did it and what he was after, but he got nothing and caused me more aggravation than anything and managed to cost me a few bucks too to replace the door.
Worst of all, it's caused problems for my mini-me. He's been displaying behaviours not typical of him despite his ADHD & ODD, like counting his things and touching them obsessively & repeatedly.
I'd like to have to little bastard that broke in here by the balls JUST for that alone.
I had a security system installed and it's monitored 24/7.
Do you remember when?
A couple of weeks ago an old boyfriend (from 15 years ago) looked me up...via my mother. That was an interesting conversation, let me tell you.
It's been fun getting reacquainted, but he's got some struggles ahead of him regarding custody of his daughters whom he desparately wants to have home with him. He's such a good dad...and from what I remember of her, those girls are better off with him anyhow!
I could see myself falling for him again...hell, who am I trying to kid...I never really got over him!
But...he told me earlier that he's not in the right mindspace for a relationship, he needs me as a friend...not more complications. I respect him for his honesty and that only endears me more to him...so I'll try to keep my emotions reined in and not wear my heart on my sleeve...
Ha!
It's been fun getting reacquainted, but he's got some struggles ahead of him regarding custody of his daughters whom he desparately wants to have home with him. He's such a good dad...and from what I remember of her, those girls are better off with him anyhow!
I could see myself falling for him again...hell, who am I trying to kid...I never really got over him!
But...he told me earlier that he's not in the right mindspace for a relationship, he needs me as a friend...not more complications. I respect him for his honesty and that only endears me more to him...so I'll try to keep my emotions reined in and not wear my heart on my sleeve...
Ha!
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