I aged 10 years in a matter of hours...

I don't think I've ever felt such a fear...

I had been trying to reach dufus (mini-me's father) ALL day, home & cell phone...I didn't know what, if any, arrangements he'd made for my mini-me for after school; yes, I assumed that he would be there for him after school as nothing different was relayed to me. When I couldn't reach dufus at either number, I finally called security at the theatre where he was working, and the person I spoke to went to find him and have him call me back at work. When he called it was then that I found out that he hadn't made any arrangements but assumed I had because he claims he told me that he was working 'til after school was out. I was in an absolute panic...I had tried several people...but to no avail and then I have to sit there and listen to him give ME hell because he fucked up?????

Anyhow...it turned out my mini-me knew where the spare key was and let himself into his dad's house. His father got an earful and I let the tears go finally.

I'm all better now...my mini-me got a big hug & he asked me what that was for. I told him I was so scared when I didn't know where he was!!

38

It's my birthday today...I'm 38 years old.

Occasionally I feel every bit of my 38 years...sometimes even more...lol...but today I don't feel 38.

All 3 of my brothers were summer babies, which is understandable. We were raised on a farm and their conceptions would have coincided with the end of harvest...I sure would like to know what was happening at the end of April in 1968...lol

Or maybe I don't wanna know...



My MJ told me..."fuck you're getting old!!"...to which I replied, "yeah but I'll *never* be as old as you..."

I'm gonna pay for that, but he deserved it...lol

I miss him like crazy...he's off on business this week, returning Saturday - in Toronto for a few days, then off to Texas & Mexico after that.

The Riot Act

Dr. M read us the riot act at Ben's appointment this morning.

I fully admit that he's been getting away with a lot and change is not going to come easily, but it's only to his benefit.

So starting Monday, from 4:30-5:30 there will be no electronic, battery, plug in, solar powered or otherwise type piece of equipment in use by him. For that hour, he must study or do homework.

Period.

I dropped him off at school and I was no sooner ensconced at my desk at work and the principal was on the phone. Ben's stomach hurt. He's "sick" so he can't stay at school.

I didn't think he'd balk quite so quickly...lol

Awesomeness

My mini-me has bloomed socially...

Because of his issues with ADHD & ODD, making and especially keeping friends has always been a major roadblock for him. Being someone who was constantly picked on for her weight, wearing glasses, being a bookworm, etc as a youngster, I felt his pain so very deeply. I've always known that he's really a sweet, considerate child and a champion of the underdog deep down inside despite his "disabilities". He has always stuck up for those smaller/younger/different than him, or when someone's being bullied, he's often the first to jump in and help them out...even when it gets him into trouble.

Lately though, he's been making a concerted effort to get himself up and ready to go to school and put the dog out in the morning so he can take part in the Breakfast Club and hang out with his friend Eric, whose Mom often volunteers there.

It's really a beautiful thing to see him coming out of his shell...

Home alone

My mini-me is 10. I've started leaving him on his own for short periods of time coz he doesn't care for shopping or anything that doesn't interest him (imagine that - a child that's self absorbed - no, really!) and would just rather stay home and watch TV or play his Gameboy.

I talked to his dad last night about babysitting because I really see no point in paying a sitter when he’s not working, so we’ve “fired” the sitter. She was being inflexible about cost as he's rarely been there in the morning, instead going directly to school so he can hang out with his friend or go to his classroom and get extra help from his teacher. He thinks he can stay on his own after school now, but I don’t know how comfortable I am about letting him be home alone for 2 hours. I’ll talk to him with his dad tonight after work and see what comes of it.

I think he'd give McCauley Culkin a run for his money...lol...and with Eddie there, nobody would dare mess with him. He makes a HUGE fuss when there's someone at the door and he's got a BIG bark. No one needs to know that he's a big ol' suck...lol

Back to the grind...

Well, the holidays are over & it's back to reality for this workin' girl. I would have worked last week, but instead of paying a sitter to keep my mini-me busy I took some vacation time and stayed home with him. He spent a couple days with my parents in Stratford and got to visit with his cousins which he always enjoys doing; he doesn't get to see them nearly often enough for his liking.

I got to spend some time with my MJ whom I also don't get to see nearly often enough for my liking...but such is the nature of our relationship. If it weren't for email & the phone, I'd go stark raving mad for lack of contact with Him. He had an interesting proposition for me when I saw Him on Thursday, but I can't say anything about it until I know more or He can confirm the details of the proposal...until then, you'll just have to wait to find out! It's big though!!

*grin*

Happy New Year

I can hardly believe we're already a few days into '07...I'm not entirely sure where '06 went in such a hurry!!

Christmas wasn't so bad...but I'm glad the holiday season is over. I'm not fond of crowds and with my mini-me's special handling needs, it's a stressful time for both of us. He's with my parents for a couple days now, so I have a break this week while I'm still off work on vacation time.