Cranky

It pisses me off when people say needlessly hurtful things and sometimes I speak my mind about it, especially if I'm "in a mood".

My back has been out since I woke yesterday and there's precious little that's easing the pain. I've been to the chiropractor - I'm a mess according to him.

Duh...lol

I've got friends coming over in a bit - I think I'll break out the percocet...they have 2 rambunctious boys and when they get together with my mini-me - chaos ensues! *grin*

Christmas angst...

So...today was a pretty good day with my family, contrary to my previous forebodings about my s-i-l. She's really not a bad sort...not all the time. ;)

We ate...nibblers 'til the meal was ready, exchanged gifts, had dessert, sat around and socialized and generally just had a nice time together...

'Til my mini-me had a mild meltdown. Now granted this wasn't one of his full blown nuclear meltdowns, but it's frustrating all the same and I wish I understood him better. I wish he could make me understand him...I wish he'd open up and tell me what's wrong instead of blowing up making an unnecessary and embarrassing scene.

BTW...I did the day straight - no booze. I had a feeling things were going to get ugly with the kidlet as soon as his dad dropped him off this morning and I wanted my wits about me...my fuse can be as short as his when I'm under the influence of alcohol.

Am I In the Mood...?

For Christmas you pervs...ha :P

Sorta...I've finished shopping - with a whopping 19 & 1/2 hours to spare 'til the party at my parents' tomorrow.

I'll wrap things up tonight before going out with the girls (ruh roh). Tonight should be fun...lol

Around 10 am I'll haul ass outta bed, get on the road once my ex drops the mini-me off and go see just how mental my family can make me this year. My 2nd brother's wife and her snippy comments and perfect children...pffft

I do believe I'll arm myself with an alcohol induced wall of indifference...although that might just be a bad thing given I've been known to speak my mind while under the influence. That could prove to be entertaining...I could plead drunken idiocy...she already knows what an asshole my brother (her husband) can be when he's tight...

On second thought, I'll avoid the booze just in case I feel the need to GET THE HELL OUT OF THERE.

Going home...

Georgia is going home from the hospital today. Not that she is better but they are not doing anything more through her port. The Stratford medical people are getting all that she will need in the way of oxygen etc. so now our prayer is that she will be stable in her own home. Please join me in praying for that and for strength for Bill and Janet to handle everything. The other 4 kids are staying with Grandma & Grandpa tonight and hopefully they can all be together tomorrow. The little boys ask every day when they can go home.

Dear God, hear my prayer. Take this little one home to you and hold her family in your arms, giving them the strength to get through this together.

Amen

Good food....

Good company... I had the pleasure of having dinner with my good friend Kjeld (pronounced Keld - the j is silent...he's Danish, k?) who always manages to keep me in stitches with his blondeness and the Kingdom of Kjeld. He's a slut. About a year ago I bought him a pin that says SLUT....and he promptly pinned it on his shirt while we were out for dinner and told everyone how proud he was to be one...he's a giggle. We talk almost daily it seems on msn, but I don't get to see him often, so it was a real treat. That and not having to do the dishes was appealing as well.

No drinks though - it's the season for the boys in the black and whites (or at least they used to be) out prowlin' to catch anyone that's had a few too many. I need my license, thanks.

And I thank them for this.

They take quite a haranguing our boys in blue, but they do their best to keep our streets safe so we can raise our kids in relative sanity...or as sane as it can be in my world ;)

success

I used to be quite adept at beating myself up "in my head".

I have a list of rules and on this list, and it's quite extensive so I won't bore you with the details save one, it says that I am to, at all times, hold myself in the highest esteem.

That's a tough one to live up to. For every failure there was an attempt, and more often success now rather than just giving up...or not trying at all...
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Oh...Annie was good! The kids in the show put on a great performance as did Miss Hannigan *grin* Many years ago (1982!), my mom bought me the soundtrack to the movie with a stellar cast (Aileen Quinn, Carol Burnett, Albert Finney, Tim Curry, Bernadette Peters) when it was released and it was obviously a favourite then...and still is. It's timeless entertainment.

And Daddy Warbucks was HOT! lol

the best of intentions...

I had big plans for our future

Said I'd give you the whole world somehow

I tried makin' good on that promise

Thought I'd be so much further by now

Never could build you a castle

Even though you're the queen of my heart

But I've had the best of intentions from the start

Now some people think I'm a loser'

Cause I seldom get things right

But you make me feel like a winner

When you wrap me in your arms so tight

Please tell me you will remember

No matter how much I do wrong

That I had the best of intentions all along

I gave you a ring

And I promised you things

I always thought we'd do

But my best-laid plans

Slipped right through my hands

To show my love for you

And if you could read my heart

Then you'd know without exception

It was all with the best of intentions

So here I am asking forgiveness

And praying that you'll understand

Don't think I take you for granted

Girl, I know just how lucky I am

Though you deserve so much better

You won't find devotion more true

'Cause I've had the best of intentions

Girl, I've had the best of intentions

Yes, I've had the best of intentions loving you

TRAVIS TRITT

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So...ignore any ring references...my current mood ain't about that. Besides...I like my space. I played house once and I wasn't very good at it...lol

I do not play well with others and I have difficulty sharing my toys. ;)

But the people in my life that I do care about deserve my utmost consideration....just that sometimes I feel like my best intentions aren't good enough......or maybe they're too much.

I think I'll go shovel snow.

The sun'll come up.......Tomorrow!

Annie is the Christmas show playing at The Grand Theatre. I'm taking my mini-me on Thursday evening and sometime next week, I'm going to take a friend.

I'll have that music in my head for weeks...lol

The moat was completed, the necessary foundation repairs made and all the correct "stuff" done that needed doing was done to ensure that I will NOT have a wet basement ever again and backfilled just before a BIG snowfall hit the city. It hasn't left yet either...not like the first drop that we got.

I don't like snow much. It's cold and sloppy and makes worse drivers out of already bad ones...I swear we have the worst drivers here! It's not conducive to my travel plans either...I'm not a confident snow driver, I'd rather just stay home!

Preferably curled up on a bearskin rug in front of a roaring fire with good food, good drink and good company...

I'd need a fireplace though.